WHY?

I have previously mentioned that I am a rapid cycling Bipolar w/ Intermittent Explosive Disorder and Schizo-affective tendacies.

I am currently taking Tegretol twice daily, and Seroquel 1 hour before bedtime.

Tegretol is prescribed mainly as an anti seizure medication, but is also prescribed as a mood stabilizer, which is why I take it.

Seroquel is an anti psychotic drug. It is widely presribed to the mentally ill (as I understand it) as a sedative. It flat knocks me out, that's no shit.
I take Seroquel for 2 reasons;

1) I have a great deal of trouble sleeping. What sleep I did get was thin and restless. I've been plagued by nightmares for many years that disrupted my sleep, I also sleepwalk, and due to having worked nights for most of my adult life I 've had trouble going to bed before 4am.
Taking this medication between 11pm and Midnight, has minimized, but not eliminated these problems. I still occasionally sleepwalk and they nightmares have become less frequent (but not by much), they don't wake me as often as they did.

2) The medication adresses a problem I didn't know I had, audio and visual hallucinations!

For as long as I can remeber, I have seen and heard things that I couldn't explain. Nothing serious you understand, I was seeing shapes and shadows, the occasional flashing geometric patterms, mostly in my peripheral vision.
The things I heard were equally harmless, laughter, muffled conversation, voices calling my name or saying HEY! as I was falling asleep, music that sounded like it was coming from another room, T.V. static, shit like that.

I associated the things I saw to my eye problems, I've had 15 eye surgeries, mostly related to retina damage, so I see "floaters" which I understand to be minute bits of debris moving around in my eyes, what I've seen was for the most part, easy to mistake for "floaters". For me at least.

The stuff I heard I never even questioned, I just thought that was part of my thought process.
As a kid I would have times when my mind raced, seemingly out of control (something that, years later, I discovered were Manic phases of my yet undiagnosed Bipolar Disorder).
I thought the stuff I heard were by products of stuff like that, I thought it happened to everyone.

I'd always thought that hallucinations were just stuff like Jesus feeding parking meters and leprichauns on your shoulder telling you to burn the world!
You can imagine my surprise!

Anyway, the medications above work to stabalize my mood and suppress the SERIOUS anger issues I have.

The last 6 or 8 weeks I've been feeling not myself, like a faded washed out version of myself, like a copy of a copy of a copy.

I don't want to do anything, don't really enjoy anything, not sleeping well despite the sedative.

Until yesterday I didn't know what to make of it. I'm depressed!
I didn't recognize it for what it was because I've never experienced depression without the other shit!
Again, imagine my surprise!

So I ask WHY?!
Why wouldn't the psychaitrist give me an anti depressant BEFORE giving me a mood stabilizer?
Why not put me in a good mood and stabilize that?!
Dr. Martinez, you have some 'splaining to do!